Addicted

“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”

1 Corinthians 10:13

I’m in my house trying not to spend money.  This not buying clothes is killing me.  I had no idea how truly ADDICTED I am to buying pretty clothes for myself.  But I recognize the signs of withdrawal – fantasizing about the addictive behavior, feeling restless, starting to rationalize the behavior again, thinking about what else I can do to escape.

Escape from what?  I have a great life.  Truly.  A. GREAT. LIFE.

I have a relationship with God, who shows me constantly how much He loves me.  I have the best husband a woman could ever want, and after 25 years I am still madly in love with him.   I have three children I love so much it hurts.  I live in my dream house that we designed and built.  My husband has a fantastic job and is excited about being a deacon in the Catholic church.

So what gives?  I feel bored.  I have cleaned, I have sorted, I have done laundry and I have cooked.  Yesterday, I ironed, which I never do.  Still feel restless.  Ok, I remember now, one day a time.  One minute at a time if I have to.  I will pray and then go to the grocery (we are out of coffee!).  Don’t buy clothes.  I will tell myself that over and over.  And stop looking at catalogs and websites selling cute clothes (they are so cute).  Say the serenity prayer, and breathe.

Just Breathe.

Thanks for letting me vent.