“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy,and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”
Something is brewing. I can feel that God wants to change me deep on the inside, let go of things that I have been pursuing for most of my life. He wants to turn me inside out. Big change is scary as all get out. I pray that God will give me the courage to be the woman He wants me to be. To dare to step into a place of adulthood and responsibility that I have shirked my whole life. He wants me to really and truly put Him first.
I am talking about money and possessions and the place they have in my life. I am talking about how I define myself (my looks, my house, my children). About being responsible and planning and owning up to my own really bad habits. How much time do I spend distracting myself with small pleasures that cost money? How much money do I spend on my appearance (more than you would think)? How do I approach the second half of my life – what will be the focus? Where is the real Helen? What’s down in there? It’s hard to break habits and patterns that have been in play for 40 plus years.
Heavy thoughts on a Friday morning.
I need some Grace today!!! And some Joy. Let’s see what God has in store….
(Umm, Helen, joy does not come from your next acquisition).