“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding”
“I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.”
A good friend of mine is fond of talking about the Weaver and His Tapestry when she describes God and His plans for us. I often think of God as a potter who is continually shaping the clay that is His people and their lives. Over the last few months the Weaver has been busy weaving together various parts of my life that were dangling threads.
As I mentioned in a previous post, I felt called by God to go to work at my church. But through an intense, prayerful, thoughtful discernment process, my family and I decided that the job was too big a time commitment for us. There were just too many night and weekends involved. I was deeply sad, and couldn’t understand why the pull felt so strong and all signs pointed to my being a good fit for what God needed, but then it was suddenly clear that I should not take the job. Confusion ruled my heart. I felt empty and alone, but understood God was with me. I knew that God had a plan for me, and I trusted Him and shockingly for me, I waited. I am not very good at waiting. My husband often reminds me that wait is not a four letter word. I thought I would be waiting for a couple more years before He called me to work for Him.
Then I got a phone call in mid-December that the church wanted to talk to me about a part-time version of the job. Only one night a week. The rest of the work could be done while my kids are in school. I was shocked, and excited! When we worked out the details it became clear that God had handed me exactly what would fit in our lives. He is the Master Weaver.
The process was fruitful and inspirational for me and for my family. All parties involved, my side and the church also, were praying and discerning and listening. When everyone is listening for direction and trying to follow His Will, all things are possible.
We will see how I handle working again, how my family adjusts and how much I can stretch my brain. I will be walking with people as they join my church. I will be helping them to learn the teachings of the Church. And hopefully I will be able to share my journey with those who wish to be Catholic, and they will see how much God loves us, provides for us and wants to be in relationship with His people. Thank you God for your great love and for being patient with me as I discerned. Thank you for weaving together the pieces of my life into something beautiful. Thank you for giving me my heart’s desire – Your Presence.
Listen to How He Loves by the David Crowder Band