“When Samuel went to sleep in his place the Lord came and stood there, calling out as before:Samuel, Samuel! Samuel answered, “Speak, for your servant is listening.”
1 Samuel 3:9-10
“For what we proclaim is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake.”
2 Corinthians 4:5
God does not want piece parts, he wants all of us. He wants to take our hearts and souls and make them new, through His Son, Jesus Christ. This process is joyful and painful at the same time. We let ourselves go and let God in.
This is not a new revelation to me, it’s just hitting at a deeper level. It is possible that God is calling me to do something different in my life. He may be calling me to hold my nose and jump. I am discerning and praying and trying to trust, but I am fearful. I want to be brave and trusting, but my control mechanism kicks in.
I am thankful for good friends with kind hearts and listening ears, and I am thankful for a supportive husband who sometimes see the bigger plan before I do. Today I am thankful for my teenagers as they become more responsible and begin to embrace the people they can be, with God’s grace.
I hear God calling me, how will I answer?
Please God help me be brave and strong and truly hear what your will is.
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You will want to listen to Emmylou Harris sing Here I Am. This has been one of my favorite songs for years, but has been on my playlist a lot in the past month.